our story

our story

It all began with my butterbean, Ivy.

I’m Lucy, the creator of butterbean. I’m Ivy and Frankie’s Mum as well as an antenatal educator specialising in birth and infant feeding.

Back in 2020, I found out I was pregnant. Those two lines on my positive pregnancy sparked two immediate thoughts - ‘oh my god I’m going to be a mum!’ and ‘oh my god I’m going to have to push a baby out!’.

At my first scan, our baby was curled into the shape of a butterbean. Throughout my pregnancy, I’d find comfort in referring to my baby as ‘my little butterbean’.

Birth has always carried an air of mystery to me. Before I fell pregnant with Ivy, I believed that women in labour are rushed to hospital in a huge panic for the doctors to take charge and deliver the baby. I thought that caesarean sections were the easy route to take and that ultimately, birth was sure to be painful and traumatic.

Spoiler alert: everything I believed was wrong.

When I reached my second trimester, I prepared for birth by taking a hypnobirthing course. I wanted to learn everything about birth, I needed to understand how to push a baby out and I had heard that hypnobirthing was the ultimate way to equip yourself for a peaceful and serene experience.

The course I took left me feeling utterly empowered. I was totally capable of a calm birth experience. I would be able to breathe my baby out and I should avoid all medical interventions. Medical interventions were a sure fire way to have a birth that was out of control and traumatic.

Now, what I didn’t know is that if you give birth in hospital then you’re highly likely to be offered medical interventions. I had planned a birth in our local hospital, in the birth centre. The course I took didn’t cover medical interventions, it simply said I should be avoiding them.

When I reached 40 weeks I was offered induction. My midwife said that if I didn’t accept there could be grave consequences for my baby. Of course, I wanted to avoid this at all costs so I accepted. What I didn’t know is that I had a choice, that I could have waited for labour to start spontaneously.

A few days later I was in hospital waiting to be induced. I was strapped to the heartrate monitor, laying on my back having my low risk pregnancy cut short. My body was not ready – my cervix hadn’t even started to move. It’s no surprise then that the first induction didn’t work. The second induction didn’t work either. 3 days later I was still in hospital waiting for my third induction.

Ivy was born 4 days after my first induction. I laboured for 15 hours before it was decided that she should be born via forceps in theatre. I had a spinal block an episiotomy in theatre. My body was not ready for labour.

Now, the hypnobirthing course I took in 2020 – it made me feel truly empowered but it didn’t give me the tools I needed to make informed choices about my care. My induction was unnecessary, and it led to further interventions which I could have potentially avoided if I had waited for labour to start spontaneously. I didn’t understand any of the implications and it wasn’t helpful to be told that all medical interventions should be avoided – it was unrealistic. I needed to understand interventions, not avoid them.

Sadly, my story isn’t unique. During the first year of Ivy’s life I met woman after woman who had experienced difficulty as they entered motherhood. I came across countless stories of tough and sometimes traumatic births, which resulted in disruptions to feeding and were often met with little to no support. It became clear to me that there was a serious shortage of guidance and encouragement for new and expecting mothers. I was also becoming aware of a narrative in the birth world that women should be avoiding medical care and this was leaving some to feel like they had failed at birth if induction, caesareans or any type of medical care was actually necessary. Something had to change.

So, along came butterbean. Butterbean is my answer to the great big void I found myself in during pregnancy. I want you to have all of the information I didn’t get. You can’t be expected to know your choices, you should be given everything you need to make informed decisions but sadly that rarely happens.

Butterbean is a space where women can feel genuinely supported from pregnancy all the way through to becoming a parent, fully aware of their options, and knowing they are not alone. Each resource and every aspect of my content is inspired by the support I didn’t get when I needed it most. I want to fill the gap that left me feeling stranded, by sharing vital information to reassure and empower you, and being your companion all the way.

This is my gift to you, from one mum to another.

Lucy xx

It all began with my butterbean, Ivy.

I’m Lucy, the creator of butterbean. I’m Ivy and Frankie’s Mum as well as an antenatal educator specialising in birth and infant feeding.

Back in 2020, I found out I was pregnant. Those two lines on my positive pregnancy sparked two immediate thoughts - ‘oh my god I’m going to be a mum!’ and ‘oh my god I’m going to have to push a baby out!’.

At my first scan, our baby was curled into the shape of a butterbean. Throughout my pregnancy, I’d find comfort in referring to my baby as ‘my little butterbean’.

Birth has always carried an air of mystery to me. Before I fell pregnant with Ivy, I believed that women in labour are rushed to hospital in a huge panic for the doctors to take charge and deliver the baby. I thought that caesarean sections were the easy route to take and that ultimately, birth was sure to be painful and traumatic.

Spoiler alert: everything I believed was wrong.

When I reached my second trimester, I prepared for birth by taking a hypnobirthing course. I wanted to learn everything about birth, I needed to understand how to push a baby out and I had heard that hypnobirthing was the ultimate way to equip yourself for a peaceful and serene experience.

The course I took left me feeling utterly empowered. I was totally capable of a calm birth experience. I would be able to breathe my baby out and I should avoid all medical interventions. Medical interventions were a sure fire way to have a birth that was out of control and traumatic.

Now, what I didn’t know is that if you give birth in hospital then you’re highly likely to be offered medical interventions. I had planned a birth in our local hospital, in the birth centre. The course I took didn’t cover medical interventions, it simply said I should be avoiding them.

When I reached 40 weeks I was offered induction. My midwife said that if I didn’t accept there could be grave consequences for my baby. Of course, I wanted to avoid this at all costs so I accepted. What I didn’t know is that I had a choice, that I could have waited for labour to start spontaneously.

A few days later I was in hospital waiting to be induced. I was strapped to the heartrate monitor, laying on my back having my low risk pregnancy cut short. My body was not ready – my cervix hadn’t even started to move. It’s no surprise then that the first induction didn’t work. The second induction didn’t work either. 3 days later I was still in hospital waiting for my third induction.

Ivy was born 4 days after my first induction. I laboured for 15 hours before it was decided that she should be born via forceps in theatre. I had a spinal block an episiotomy in theatre. My body was not ready for labour.

Now, the hypnobirthing course I took in 2020 – it made me feel truly empowered but it didn’t give me the tools I needed to make informed choices about my care. My induction was unnecessary, and it led to further interventions which I could have potentially avoided if I had waited for labour to start spontaneously. I didn’t understand any of the implications and it wasn’t helpful to be told that all medical interventions should be avoided – it was unrealistic. I needed to understand interventions, not avoid them.

Sadly, my story isn’t unique. During the first year of Ivy’s life I met woman after woman who had experienced difficulty as they entered motherhood. I came across countless stories of tough and sometimes traumatic births, which resulted in disruptions to feeding and were often met with little to no support. It became clear to me that there was a serious shortage of guidance and encouragement for new and expecting mothers. I was also becoming aware of a narrative in the birth world that women should be avoiding medical care and this was leaving some to feel like they had failed at birth if induction, caesareans or any type of medical care was actually necessary. Something had to change.

So, along came butterbean. Butterbean is my answer to the great big void I found myself in during pregnancy. I want you to have all of the information I didn’t get. You can’t be expected to know your choices, you should be given everything you need to make informed decisions but sadly that rarely happens.

Butterbean is a space where women can feel genuinely supported from pregnancy all the way through to becoming a parent, fully aware of their options, and knowing they are not alone. Each resource and every aspect of my content is inspired by the support I didn’t get when I needed it most. I want to fill the gap that left me feeling stranded, by sharing vital information to reassure and empower you, and being your companion all the way.

This is my gift to you, from one mum to another.

Lucy xx